Life, Death, and the Absurdity of Being

***One side love***

Seen you in the blossom there
The petals in your hair
The summer in the air

In the dappled broken day
Could have whiled a life away
Still with everything to say

Oh my love
Oh my love

I'd give you all the land and sea
If you'd give yourself to me
Give yourself freely

I'll never make you love me
One side love can never be
Our love dies with me

Goodbye my love
Goodbye my love



***Space between***

I only want
To be free
Untied from the chair
And pushed out the door to walk in the sun

I only want
To be free
From the clock and the chain
And disqualified from the race to nowhere

It's in the space between us
It's in the shadows in your eyes
It was in all our chances
It passed us by

I only want
To be free
From the horror and pain
Electricity cut and the newspapers burned

I only want
To be free
To fall from the coil
To close out the light and rest quiet in the soil



***Dead flowers***

You sent me dead flowers
For a month and a day
For a month and a day till I finally said
I was going your way

You killed all the rainbows
By telling me why
By telling me why the light arcs the sky
You covered my eyes

I am getting on the road
And making up my time
And leaving you behind

You, you'll see the setting sun
But my day has just begun

You filled up my head
With all your ideas
With all your ideas about how I could never
Survive on my own

Well I'm seeing through you
I'm seeing the way
I'm seeing the way to a beautiful day
And I'm not seeing you

I am getting on the road
And making up my time
And leaving you behind

You, you'll see the setting sun
But my day has just begun



***No Passengers***

In a loud room on a fly-by day in July,
and the sunshine on the outside pulls my eyes wide,
and I'm leaving, I am leaving, in the sunset.
and I will be, all I will be before I forget,

and I'll take no passengers,
I'll take no passengers,

I'm shaking out the dust today,
I'm leaving it behind me,
I think that it might be okay
to leave it all behind me.

Endless voices follow me down, swallow my ground,
but I don't care, where I'm going there is no sound,
and I'm flying, I am flying, to a new sky,
and I will be, all I will be before I die

and I'll take no passengers,
I'll take no passengers,

I'm shaking out the dust today,
I'm leaving it behind me .
I think that it might be okay,
to leave it all behind me.



***Hundred Days***

I saw the days change a hundred days back
(a hundred days back while I lay in the sack)
I saw the days change.

I saw your mind change a hundred days gone
(a hundred days gone while I tagged along)
I saw your mind change.

Your eyes for me grew tired
and you started to turn,
you were gone before long
and the days came undone,
and as you became something,
I became just a shadow
all the nothings I'd done,
bleached me out in the sun.

I saw my mistakes in the cold light of day
(in the cold light of day with the end on the way)
I saw my mistakes.

I saw the end come through the end of a glass
(through the end of a glass with one eye in the past)
I saw the end come.



***Broken Shoes***

What am I supposed to do
with all the things I've done to you?
The devil walks in broken shoes.

Who am I to even try
to keep together you and I?
The devil only knows goodbye.

I don't care if I don't sleep,
I ask no one my soul to keep.
If I can't sleep then I can't wake,
I ask no one my soul to take.

What am I supposed to do
when I don't know where to look for you?
The devil will not help me through.

The devil will find work for me
in all my broken misery
(this he can guarantee).

I don't care if I don't see,
I ask no one to see for me.
If I can't see then I can't win,
I ask no one to let me in.



***Easy***

Beautiful ugly
Everything to me
Captive free
Always be

Beautiful inside
Nothing to hide
On my mind
All the time

So easy to be with you
With you's where I'll be
With you anywhere's all right with me

Beautifully free
Everything happy
Always be
Close to me

So easy to be with you
With you's where I'll be
With you anywhere's all right with me



***Unmanned***

Doors open and close,
chances come and go, I am so slow.
I am so slow.

And days, hands drag their heels,
as slow as they feel. I am alone.
I am alone.

Won't you give me a hand?
Cause I don't understand.
All I do comes to nothing,
nothing is how I planned.

Eyes open and close, images go,
I'll say hello but nobody knows.
And days come and go fast, nothing much lasts,
I'd say goodbye but you've already passed.

Won't you give me a hand?
Cause I don't understand.
All I do comes to nothing,
nothing is how I planned.

I've done all that I can
but I still don't understand.
Can't you see that I'm sinking
and my ship is unmanned?



***All the Roads***

Here's to all the roads I never travelled.
Here's to all the books I never read.
Here's to all the promises I've broken.
Here's to all the things I never said.

Give me just a day and I will waste it.
Give me one more chance and I will fail.
Give me one more promise I will break it.
Give me any ship and I'll set sail.

I'll let you down again.

Here's to everything you ever gave me.
Here's to all the things I threw away.
Here's to all the times you saved me.
Here's to all the times I went astray.

Give me all your life and I will waste it.
Give me all your days to throw away.
Give me your heart and I will break it.
Give me everything but I won't stay.

I'll let you down again

(I'll let you down every time).



***Feathers in my Bed***

I dreamed an angel loved me
Woke with feathers in my bed
She would take nothing from me
Not a single word she said
I dreamed she flew above me
Like a glorious ivory dove
Then settled on my brokenness
And drowned me in her love

The shadows lifted from me
And the tears all dried away
The light fell like a blanket
Illuminating the day
I dreamed she flew me high above
The clouds and the mountains
Then laid me gentle as a sound
Back into my skin

I dreamed beside my angel
All my brokenness repaired
And all the pain had vanished
Like it had never been there
Everything was different
But it was all just the same
And anyone who met my eyes
Would know an angel came

I dreamed an angel loved me
Woke with feathers in my hair
And I had been the one that she
Had come here to repair
And when her work was done with me
She rose up like the sun
She arced and sank forever
Like a pebble in the ocean



***Thankk you***

Thank you for your interest in the winter
Thank you for the things you said
Thank you for the smile you lent me
Sorry you went away

Dreamed you came to find me
I'd already gone
Sorry for my behaviour
Never wanted to let you down

Love is all I wanted
To give you

Thank you for receiving
Thank you for what you gave
Thank you for the words you sent me
Sorry youre far away

Love is all
I wanted
To give you

Love is all
We really
Ever
Have



***Come to Pass***

Take these tears
And wipe them from your eyes
There is no time to cry
No time to ask why

Take your days
And live them one by one
Your life has just begun
With every day that comes

(You will see it all come to pass)

Take this pain
And leave it all behind
The echoes in your mind
Disappear in time

Take these stains
And wash them all away
New for a new day
You will be okay

(You will see it all come to pass)



***all words copyright 2007 tony macgregor***
***The Lead Balloon Recording Company***


Words for Lamb

***One side love***

Seen you in the blossom there
The petals in your hair
The summer in the air

In the dappled broken day
Could have whiled a life away
Still with everything to say

Oh my love
Oh my love

I'd give you all the land and sea
If you'd give yourself to me
Give yourself freely

I'll never make you love me
One side love can never be
Our love dies with me

Goodbye my love
Goodbye my love



***Space between***

I only want
To be free
Untied from the chair
And pushed out the door to walk in the sun

I only want
To be free
From the clock and the chain
And disqualified from the race to nowhere

It's in the space between us
It's in the shadows in your eyes
It was in all our chances
It passed us by

I only want
To be free
From the horror and pain
Electricity cut and the newspapers burned

I only want
To be free
To fall from the coil
To close out the light and rest quiet in the soil



***The day you come back***

The day you come back
Clouds will break open and sunrays will fall
And I'll be as high as the back of the sky

But while you're away I am dead to the day

When I see you come
I'll open the windows and sing to the sun
And all of my dead yesterdays will be done

And all of the pieces
Will come back to one

Somebody said
The day you come back wed be frozen in hell
And I was just throwing coins into a well

And looking away
From the light of day

Days melt away
Like snowmen in the rain

I'll still be here when
The fire has blown cold in the absence of friends
And all the kings horses and all the kings men

Will never get me
Together again



***Jezebel***

Counting the clouds passing over the sun
Laid in the shade we always had fun
Soon came the day when you'd make your own way
Wonder if somewhere you dream of the old days

Sun sister sun how it shined on the water
Soaked to the skin in the longest of summers
My little jezebel was ripe for the strangle
Sun in her eyes her hair in a tangle

Counting the leaves as they blew past the window
Wondering if somewhere you felt the way I do
My little jezebel I light you a candle
Sun in your eyes your hair in a tangle




***Olympia***

Dont for a minute think I forgot you.
I carry your name like an Olympic flame every day.
On quiet days can you hear me speak to you?
Can I be forgiven for my unforgivable sins?


The sky starts to shine when you enter my mind.
If you have the time
won't you leave all my regrets behind me?
If you find me.

Don't for a minute think that I like this.
My chances are done
and my ghosts have all stolen the sun.
In a second hand minute of some stolen day
can I see you?
If I could I would go back and change it
from where we begun.

The sky starts to shine when you enter my mind.
If you have the time
won't you leave all my regrets behind me?
If you find me.

And if you do and if all this is true,
Will it be me crawling round
on the floor before you?
That's what I'd do.



***My impossible love***

She moved like light on the ground
Soft as air escaping sound
I like a dead tree fell
Thumped the ground and broke the spell

She like a bird was gone
Over the trees and into the dawn
I like a stone lay still
With a space only she could fill

How I need my impossible love
I will die with my impossible love

The sky and the seasons have changed
But I still feel the same
She's nowhere to be found
Lighting up some other ground

How I need my impossible love
I will die with my impossible love
How I need my impossible love
I will die with my impossible love




***Thankk you***

Thank you for your interest in the winter
Thank you for the things you said
Thank you for the smile you lent me
Sorry you went away

Dreamed you came to find me
I'd already gone
Sorry for my behaviour
Never wanted to let you down

Love is all I wanted
To give you

Thank you for receiving
Thank you for what you gave
Thank you for the words you sent me
Sorry youre far away

Love is all
I wanted
To give you

Love is all
We really
Ever
Have



***Dreaming is all I do***

If I had been looking, I would have seen you falling
If I had been better, better than I am.
If I had been here more, I would've saw your light go
Would've seen the shadows, covering your eyes.

I just saw the old days
Reflected on your face
Only saw the surface
Now I don't see you at all.

If I had you again, things would be different
I would be to you, what you were to me.
But my chances are gone, everyone moves on
I just stay the same, with what we used to be.

I just saw the old days
Reflected on your face
Only saw the surface
Now I don't see you at all.

I would give tomorrow
For a second with you
Dreaming is all I do
Now I don't see you at all.




***Dead flowers***

You sent me dead flowers
For a month and a day
For a month and a day till I finally said
I was going your way

You killed all the rainbows
By telling me why
By telling me why the light arcs the sky
You covered my eyes

I am getting on the road
And making up my time
And leaving you behind

You, you'll see the setting sun
But my day has just begun

You filled up my head
With all your ideas
With all your ideas about how I could never
Survive on my own

Well I'm seeing through you
I'm seeing the way
I'm seeing the way to a beautiful day
And I'm not seeing you

I am getting on the road
And making up my time
And leaving you behind

You, you'll see the setting sun
But my day has just begun



***Easy***

Beautiful ugly
Everything to me
Captive free
Always be

Beautiful inside
Nothing to hide
On my mind
All the time

So easy to be with you
With you's where I'll be
With you anywhere's all right with me

Beautifully free
Everything happy
Always be
Close to me

So easy to be with you
With you's where I'll be
With you anywhere's all right with me



***all words copyright 2007 tony macgregor / The Lead Balloon Recording Company***